Building My Life Around My Dreams

Have you ever experienced fear of failure?  If you can honestly say no, then I’d be willing to bet that you’re one of few.  Throughout my life, I’ve been crippled with fear of failure and in turn, I’ve never been willing to chase my dreams.  What is my dream?

In my early 20’s I spent a lot of time in this one coffee house in Charlotte, NC that was cozy and comfy and had this vibe of “come in, rest, relax, enjoy, be at peace” and I did all of that there.  I had no idea what GOOD coffee was at the time but I knew how I felt when I was hanging out late at night with my friends and feeling that calm.  I decided back then that I wanted to be the owner of a coffee shop just like that but not in the city.

I was married at the time and my husband was supportive of my idea but neither of us had any idea how to start a business, didn’t have the capital to make it happen and certainly couldn’t (or rather wouldn’t) afford to take a leap of faith with two kids to raise.  And so, my dream lay dormant for many years.  What I did choose to do to get myself some familiarity with being a business owner was to get involved in direct sales with Pampered Chef, which I still do today, but that is not the same as paying overhead, rent and being responsible for someone else’s livelihood.

In 2006, I moved to Alaska and saw what a mountain town was really like and my dream was once again realized.  I made some tremendously wonderful friends; all who were supportive but that never was enough to level that fear into confidence.   I was drowning in that fear and while miserable working at a desk, continued to live on that paycheck.

Fast forward to 2012…my daughter and I left Alaska for California and I knew that would not be my place to open a coffeehouse because I had no doubts about wanting it to be in a mountain state where there was snow and green and I could build it to my specification in my head.  So, in California I was fortunate enough not to work at a desk but to be in sales and travel for a living which brings me to my current living situation.

My dream is once again realized and I am so blessed with the job that I have currently because it brought me to Colorado.  For three years I traveled back and forth to this state and finally decided this is where I’m meant to be.  I moved to Colorado almost two months ago and found my home.  This is where I can FINALLY open my business.  I’m on track and so excited to say that after nearly twenty years of internal battling through the fear, I’m taking steps.  It will take some time as I have things that need to happen in consecutive order BUT, plans are in motion and I am walking through all that fear of self employment and will one day be able to share with you my dream in full force.

To those reading this that have told me how possible it is and always shown me support and love, THANK YOU!

To those reading this who don’t know me but still send me positive vibes, THANK YOU!

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Taking the Time

It’s quite obvious that I’m not the most dedicated blogger.  When I started this page, it was with the intention of sharing my adventures with cyberspace and putting my words and thoughts out there.  I have done quite a lax job of that since my last post was nearly two years ago.  For reasons unknown to me, I’m finding some desire to begin blogging again and so here goes.

Since my last post, we arrived in the East Bay area of northern California where the home I thought was secured for my daughter and I was stripped away the day we were to arrive in town.  We grabbed a hotel and had a whopping four days to find a place to live, buy a car, find people to help unload my U-haul and get our California dreaming life started.  And it all worked out just as it should.  We got a car, signed a lease and turned the truck in with a few hours to spare before I would be tagged with a $150.00 a day rental fee for going past my due date.  WHEW!!!

Northern California (east bay in particular) turned out not to be the place that my daughter and I wanted to live so we lived out our first year there with me traveling for work as much as I could and her hanging in there and working as much as she could until, at last, we finished out our first year there and off we went to Southern California which is where we are today.

Living in south Orange County has proved to be an experience in itself.  Becoming part of the community is much easier said than done.  It’s taken me a long time to get to a point where I even want to call this place home and even now, I have every intention of moving back north somewhere.  My daughter on the other hand will stay down here.  She has found herself completely at home here.  For me, I need more seasons and less consistency in the weather.  I need a smaller community with more open minded and open heart people.  Don’t get me wrong…the people here are so nice and I have met a handful of wonderful people I happily call my friends.  However, I don’t get that feeling of community that I crave and so, as soon as my daughter is out on her own, I’ll be off and running again; searching for that place I can call home.  I can see it in my head and feel in it my heart.

As far as my travels since leaving North Carolina, I have been to many places and I want to share some of my incredible adventures with you. Look for new posts very soon with lots to share about amazing places I’ve had the true pleasure to visit in the last two years.  Until then…

From NC to CA

In 4 days I leave for California.  I’ll be traveling with my 17 year old daughter and I’ve decided that this is the perfect opportunity to get started on my travel blogging.  A journey of picking up our lives for the second time and heading west but instead of Alaska it will be to sun country. We’re very excited about this next step in our lives.  We are independent and strong women who love to chase our dreams. My wonderful daughter has followed me all her life to chase my dreams and now I’ve been so blessed to land the most wonderful job that allows me to follow her while she chases her dreams.  

I can hardly wait to see where it takes us.

See you Sunday!

 

~Leigh Ann

Pushing forward

It’s been a crazy few months.  I moved back to my hometown to help my mother deal with the death of her father and in the process her husband died.  After that happened, all my plans were changed and everyone’s world sort of turned upside down.  Now that the dust has settled, it’s time to push forward.

I’ve done a little traveling since I’ve been here but life is a little too chaotic to blog yet.  I’ll post some fun pics and tales of my travels once I”m settled because…..

In 9 days, I’ll be making the second biggest move of my life from the east coast to California and my 17 year old daughter and I couldn’t be more excited.  Not only will we be in the land of moderate temps and beaches, the lifestyle is so much healthier than the southeastern lifestyle.  Fresh fruits and veggies, lots of outdoor activities and sunshine.  I know there is outdoor activities here, but knowing I was only going to be here a short time, I opted to put my time and energy into being with my mother and didn’t get involved in any way with the goings on in the south.

NOW…I will be in a great environment for cooking “my style” and will be working on new ideas and fun recipes as well as building a new life for myself.  I have hired a trainer and will also be getting in the best shape of my life.  So world, LOOK OUT!!!  I’m ready to start living life!

Namaste

Total Gratitude

Do you ever have moments when you just want to giggle like a giddy school girl or do those little tiny bounces up and down because you’ve just had the best day or things are just that good?!?  That’s me today.

Sometimes, like many of us I’m sure, I find that it’s hard to be happy and grateful for the big things in life, let alone the small things.  And sometimes, I find that I’m overflowing with gratitude.  Well, today is one of those days that just started out with me feeling pretty grateful for the life I have and then…..it became so amazingly wonderful that I’m brimming with giddy.

On the “just grateful” note…I’ve had a couple of losses in my family lately and so each day that I wake up and feel good…it’s a good day.  I read inspirational readings every morning, I journal every morning (aside from blogging) and I pray to the good Lord above every day and night saying help me be the best person I can be every morning and thank you for a good day every night.  And I mean it!!!  These are things I have been doing for a good long time now, but they seem to mean more and go deeper when things like death happens.

On the “OMG! it just got amazing” note…I have THE BEST job!  My job allows me to travel.  And I LOVE to travel.  Today, I found out that get to go to NYC for a week soon.  I LOVE NYC.  This is one of those “made my whole week” moments in the day.  And I get to do a trade show.  Trad shows are super fun.  Meeting people from all over the world and all walks of life.  I believe that God put me on this Earth to talk to people.  I love sales, mingling, chatting it up and just being personable.  I want to know your story and know you as a person.  Getting to know people is a gift.  Who doesn’t like gifts?

So soon, I’ll have some fun travel blogging and hopefully some beautiful spring pictures for you all to enjoy!!!

Happy Wednesday!

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Getting Started

I’ve done a few blogs over the years…usually something to do with whatever is going in my life at that moment.  But never one just for me to be me.  This is my new fun blog that will allow me to share some of my past journey, my current journey and my exciting future journey with you.  If you like it….WONDERFUL…and if not…I’m so sorry and I hope you find something you do enjoy.

My life today is ALL about being free and finding the good, calm, peace and joy in life.  I hope you enjoy the journey.  I have so much to tell and so much to do.  I have big plans for me and want to take you along the ride.  It’s been a long time coming for me to find happiness.

You may notice that the headline for my blog is about me becoming the woman I always wanted to be…and that is all about learning to be independent, single and most importantly happy as a single woman who loves herself.

ENJOY THE JOURNEY LIFE HAS TO OFFER.  ITS A SHORT RIDE AND WELL WORTH MAKING IT COUNT FOR YOU.  BECAUSE WITHOUT YOUR OWN HAPPINESS AND LOVE FOR YOURSELF…NO ONE ELSE IN YOUR LIFE CAN FIND IT FOR YOU!!!!

NAMASTE….

This just happened.  I did not try to make this smile.  But God sure did!
This just happened. I did not try to make this smile. But God sure did!