Walking Through the Fear

I’m writing this blog in the hopes that someone out there can share their experience with me (hopefully in relation to my situation) and make my heart feel lighter.

In 7 days, I will be moving from California to Colorado.  Many people find that California offers the best weather and the most beautiful beaches and closeness to the rich and famous and to them, that’s all one needs in life.  For me, I discovered after moving to California that I am not a beach person, nor am I curious to rub elbows with the stars and I miss snow and real mountains.

My sadness comes in to the equation, because I’m moving 1200 miles away from my wonderful 21 year-old daughter and it breaks my heart that we will be living so far apart for the first time ever.  She and I have been thick as thieves for 21 years and now I’m choosing to do something I’ve never known another parent to do and move away from my child.

On a brighter note, I travel for a living so I will get to see her every couple of months, but I’ve never gone more than 2 weeks without seeing her.

After filling you in on my tale of woe, allow me to give some of my rationalization into choosing to move away.  For starters, she is 21 and living on her own and I know I can’t live my life for her.  Second, I’m much happier in Colorado during the time I’ve spent there and I enjoy the scenery and the people so much.  Finally, MONEY!  The cost of living and taxes are astronomical in California.  I might be young still, but I’d like to retire one day.

I ask anyone who reads this blog and can relate to please share your experience, strength and hope with me that I might be able to get through the next 7 days with grace and happiness.

 

4 comments

  1. Leigh Ann, I’ve known you for a while and what I do know about you is that you don’t make a major changes without much thought and prayer going into it. You have raised a very strong and independent daughter and she will be fine. I completely understand your concerns about leaving her. But remember, with your job you will be able to see quite frequently. I get it when you say that you are much happier in Colorado where there are mountains, the pace of life is slower, and it’s less expensive than California. I also think that the changes of season are nice too. Take care in your next adventure. I look forward to visiting you in your new home of Colorado. Love ya gal.

    • Aww Linda you’re a wonderful friend. Thank you so much for your words of kindness and encouragement and you’re right about me not making the decision lightly. I look very forward to having you out. I have plenty of room for guests! Love you!

  2. My experience has been, when I follow the intuitive voice from deep within, I can’t go wrong. My head, however …well that is another story…as sometimes, I think my head wants to kill me. Bottom line….there are no mistakes…..many adventures! Enjoy and embrace this amazing new adventure. I love you xo

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